Basically we are all "Captains Courageous" ...
This weekend was a bit 'difficult, because of bad weather, a snowstorm that promised to be difficult and time consuming . Cicitto he was frightened, and so all of our programs have been disrupted.
Today I was just in bed when I wake up and when I went to work. The afternoon was long, although not difficult. Back home, I found an empty house, dark and silent and so I put the television, turning to the channels, until I found a movie I've seen more and more times: "Captains Courageous", just down ... And as always crying like a baby.
Yes just like a child, because it is identified in the character of the film: a child who turns out to be a man during a crossing of the great sea ...
I thought back to my relationship with my father, as I have shown how the dough mortar on how you build a wall ... how you face life!
And I who I can teach you how to find a vein, as you are managing a heart attack ... as we learn to live?!?
not by choice, not by the will, I know I will not have children to teach, which leave something to me, to teach or as sparse as we rejoice in front of a flower that blooms ... I'm just with my
Cicitto ... ... we are just two of us to face life and difficulties, to face life without inheritance!
Our union is a marriage without children, what I would call infertile heterosexual couples.
I know that's something we'll let the other: In friends, our colleagues, our grandchildren, but never like leaving behind a son!
And that's what, at times, I miss the most!
the two of us for each other in a wonderful way, we help and assist us, we understand and we accept, let us come to meet us strength, but when one of us there was more, what will become of the other people who will take care of, who will assist him, who understand, who will give him the strength to overcome the difficulties?! ?
My Love, I tremble at the thought that you can be alone without me, that I can not be there with you to support you and give you the strength and courage to go on ...
just us two, you and I, for life given to us to have and then ....??
I can not imagine without you, nor I can only imagine without me ...
Until then we are never far away and not face alone ... decisions without discussing it together ... do not let the lack of a child to demoralize us.
Our children are our days spent together and our dreams are our heritage, our love will be our example for future generations of men who decide to live their lives with a homosexual ....
still talk, still crazy words dictated by the force of a moment of weariness after yet another film made especially for you to feel bad ... or maybe just to make you think ...
I love you and forever!
And now it is better to close and I rate you and I embrace you. You, Sal.
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